you fucking get me.
I don't care if your bigger and better than me, you are my fucking hero.
you better be back soon, and this time I won't faint.
Tuesday 31 January 2012
phantom limbs.
i can still feel you,
a body beside mine that is no longer there
and i reach to touch you and i fall through
and grab cotton instead.
i can still hear, feel and smell you.
but cannot touch you.
i cannot touch you.
a body beside mine that is no longer there
and i reach to touch you and i fall through
and grab cotton instead.
i can still hear, feel and smell you.
but cannot touch you.
i cannot touch you.
fuck.
I don't even know what I'm running away from any more. I am in danger if losing myself and burning the bridge to anywhere that I belong.
i am considering moving out. i need to be on my own, have my own space.
i don't have that here. i need something to call my own, somewhere i can
sprawl, and be messy with my music blasting and paper and paint and tape
everywhere. i am missing something.
i don't feel whole.
something is missing.
fuck.fuck.fuck.fuck.fuck.fuck.fuck.fuck.fuck.
fuck.fuck.fuck.fuck.fuck.fuck.fuck.fuck.fuck.
fuck.fuck.fuck.fuck.fuck.fuck.fuck.fuck.fuck.
Monday 30 January 2012
dear, g.
for someone i've only ever seen in the flesh once
you are really quite important to me.
i have to say thank you, you apologised to us all
and i'm pretty sure we all instantly forgave you.
its hard to stay mad at someone so insanely handsome.
i know i fainted in the middle of your set
but i was in heaven, and i still can barely talk
for the screaming your words back at you.
and my arm still hurts from holding it up in the air
so you can know that i'm here, and i'm not going
to give up.
ever.
thank you for coming here, and thank you for
helping me keep the faith.
you make me stronger than i could ever be
on my own, and one day i will write your words
on me so that i can keep you and your strength
with me always.
killjoy sparrow.
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